A beautifully crafted memoir, which entangles the author's exploration of Carson McCullers' queer life and archives with her own coming to terms with her identity both as a writer and as a lesbian. It's tender and precise and full of care about what it means to read and interpret the past when you long for traces of queer history as you examine your own changing self. The book unfolds in a constant wondering about queer understandings of love, reciprocity and creativity that have existed before and which you may (or may not) be able to recover in the interstices of the literary and art canon. A big fan of McCullers myself, I wasn't disappointed!